Today is THE big day. Today my son brings his 'new' car home. Last Sunday, the child flew to Alabama to visit his father. His real intentions were to pick up his 'new' car that his great grandmother is giving him...well actually giving me.
This has been a long journey for me. I never had a car at 17. In fact I was 19 and in college when I got my first car. What a treasure. It was a 1976 Ford Elite that I called Miss Ellie. I've stood firm and determined that my child would not be like others and have a car when he turned 16. I'm proud to say that I've held him off for a year. Pride is such a terrible thing. The opportunity came up this Spring when his grandfather approached me to say that they were ready to give the child his great grandmother's car. I nearly freaked out and the voice of Judge Judy pounded in my head about all the evils of teenagers and the stupid things they do. I'd be darned if my 17 year old was going to be like those teens on TV and have a car. The child knew the answer too and sat quietly as I said, "I'd think about it." When we got in the car and before I had the chance to turn on the ignition, I said, "I'll have to talk to your uncle and the insurance agent." I just knew that my brother would say, "Are you crazy! Do you know the statistic for wrecks with teen drivers!" After all, he is an attorney. I also knew that my insurance agent would say, "Karen, you cannot afford for your 17 year old to have a car. You cannot pay the premiums. What are you thinking! 17 year old teens have no business having their own car." I felt confident that I had the support from these two, so I knew that I was safe in my decision for my teen to NOT have a car. Little did I know that would all blow up in my face!!!!!
The next day, I called my brother and explained the situation. In his lawyerly voice he asked the important questions, "What kind of car? What year? Will the title be signed over to you?" My reply, "It is a Ford, 1993 and yes it will be titled to me." His response shocked me! This was my safety net! I just knew that he would say, "ARE YOU CRAZY!" but NO....he said, "Karen, I think that it is a good idea." I was stunned. No words could come from my mouth. Not one sound, while all the time I was yelling inside. "No...you were supposed to tell me NO. I'm not ready for this" I quickly gathered myself knowing that there was one last hope; my insurance agent would surely support me and tell me that I couldn't possibly afford the premiums. Besides, how stupid am I for giving a 17 year old a car. I gathered myself together and called. I explained the situation. I could hear the keyboard clicking away as the agent entered the information in THE COMPUTER. My confidence is gaining strength. I know that I can't afford this. I just know! Then I hear, "Well, Karen, if I were to get my teen a car, that would be the kind I'd get. It is made of steel and it is big. Also, your premiums will go down." My vision turned black. I couldn't hear anything. I sat in silence.
What would be my excuse now? I know, I'll just lie to the child. I'll tell him that his uncle and the insurance agent thought it was a stupid idea and I just couldn't afford it. Yeah...I'll just lie! Problem is....I've never lied to the child before. Not sure I could pull it off with a straight face. Ok...fine...I'll just lie to him over the phone. I can do that. I don't have to look at him. Wait...he is going to want to talk about it later. Crap! What was I going to do???? AVOIDANCE. That was the ticket. I will avoid the conversation. Relief...I had a plan. Feeling ever so confident, I waited for the child. My plan was in action. The child came home. We talked about the usual, how was your day stuff. He went to his room and I went to mine...AVOIDANCE! How wonderful. Then it happened. I hear him coming up the stairs. My heart is pounding. I begin to sweat. Why is he coming up? I hear my child's voice, from the kitchen, those dreaded words, "Mom have you talked to Uncle Craig yet?" What was I going to do? Pretend I didn't hear him. I do that all the time so why no. This time, he comes to me and asks. "Mom, have you called Uncle Craig yet?" My reply, "Huh? What? Why?" The child's response, "You know. To ask about the car." The dam burst and out it came. "Uncle Craig thinks it is a good idea and the agent said that my premiums would be cheaper." There, I said it! Oh NO...what had I just done?! There was no turning back. I said
IT.
So here I am, sitting at the computer on a Sunday morning at 5:00 AM about to get dressed to drive 6 hours to meet the child and his 'new' old car. How did we get to this place? All because I can't lie.
Teens really think that they have a tough life. Peer pressure, school pressure, growing pressure and life in general pressure. Well, one thing is for sure....I honestly believe his growing up is harder on me than it is on him. I'm the one with the 'letting go' problems. This is just another step in his independence and journey to manhood. I don't like it all!